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Boss pulled me aside this morning. Told me that I came in well under the projected budget on the job I finished up about a month ago. He asked me if there was any tool that I hadn't already bought for myself? I told him that the only tool I own that still needs a wall outlet is my table saw. So... I found the best deal on it that I could, and they told me to put it on my company card. And as soon as I ordered it, one of my coworkers offered me $150 for my corded version. Makita doesn't make a cordless table saw, but this will work just fine.

OK. Understood. That is clever. I definitely wouldn't have thought to try that. And if I did, I'd have no idea how to achieve it.

I would probably find it humorous as well if I could decipher what it is you're saying.

No, but I did look at it recently. Seems like a nice tool. It's accurate to 30 seconds in 5 years.

Taking away a balcony door on the top floor rental of a home in the Sunset District. Replacing old door with a window. My boss is a stickler for matching the height to the existing window, down to the 1/16". That's the hardest part, especially since the existing window is nothing like the new one. Turned out great. Once the painter is done it'll look like it's always been that way.

Fractional cookies, er biscuits. My favorite!

It's a very rare kind of laziness that finds me eating anything at the golden arches.

Bah Dah, Bah Bah Bah. What I really wanted was a fractional muffin, but damned if I didn't have a knife!

Thanks for the reminder! Done. But I need to know if this is upside down world, because Al woke up earlier than me?

Happy Birthday Jeffy!

He's just going through a phase.

I could have guessed it was Brits just by the photo. Who else would use a knife with muffins?

Jeff, you may not have been born a nerd, but you have certainly gained that status through osmosis. It's a hard thing to come to grips with. I learned this about myself at my first Head-Fi meet in Austin.

This is how the night went... I picked him up at his jobsite after work. He does not drive, and usually rides with his Uncle. We just made small talk as I drove him to his home to shower and change clothes. I chatted with his Uncle while that took place. I think his Uncle was more excited than anyone. When he was ready we went to a local (Daly City) Greek spot for Gyros. He had never experienced a Gyro, and he absolutely loved it. While having our Gyros, I directed the conversation straight (no pun intended) to his sexuality. I wanted to get that out of the way. He was a bit embarrassed as we talked openly, but was very forthcoming. He is a virgin, and has never really been attracted to girls. He does seem to be a bit confused about exactly what his sexuality is, as he's also never done anything with another guy. He just said that he feels good whenever he's around me. He definitely has Father figure feelings toward me, but is confused regarding the other. He did say that he thought I was very handsome, to which I joked "well of course, you do have good eyesight", and that managed to get a chuckle from him. He's such an innocent young man. Warm and friendly with a curiosity about everything. I do enjoy being around him. But I'm certain that in no way do I want to be his first sexual encounter. We've agreed that we will be friends for now, and I've offered to slowly introduce him into the gay community. Then he can better determine where he fits in. I'm about 95% sure that he's gay. But want him to take all the time he needs to figure that out for himself. I'm also determined to steer him toward guys his age. Your first sexual experience is extremely important in setting the tone for future relationships. And those would be easier if they involved similar ages and stages in life. I realized that I do feel very protective toward him. And maybe a Father figure/mentor will not only be beneficial for him, but myself as well. We ended our outing watching Mario at the theater, where he did snuggle into me a bit, and I didn't discourage that. Very innocent, but kind of cute.

Control his head! And to make a point, control it with the vices he sent you!

Happy Birthday!

Well that's very restrictive of you.

Are you interviewing Brent for a job?

I guess that I should elaborate more. I don't have any intentions of a sexual relationship with this boy. I know that even if I wanted to, a romantic relationship is not my strong suit. Given that this young man is so young, that's really a recipe for messing up a young mind. My feelings of guilt before anything at all has even happened are another reason I know that would be a very bad idea. What I would like to achieve Friday, is way of explaining the situation to him in a way that leaves him feeling OK with the fact that our relationship will stay professional and friendly. He was rejected by his biological Father early in his life, and has not had a strong influence from a man in his life. The last thing that I want to do is make him feel rejected one more time. This is a delicate thing to achieve, but I want to believe that it's possible.

So I found out something yesterday, and it has me in a weird place. Only once previously in my career have I ever dated a co-worker. That was a long time ago, in Alaska. We dated a few times, but I didn't develop any real feelings for him, and it didn't end badly, but was a bit awkward for a while. He was actually a few years older than me. And we absolutely never let anyone know about it, as neither of us were out at work. Now some 35ish years later, and I'm learning that another co-worker has a crush on me, and wants to pursue those feelings. I have always been extremely professional at work, mostly because I absolutely had to be. And I definitely have mixed feelings about this happening. There are a couple of issues that have me grappling with this. Firstly, just the fact that it's difficult to date a co-worker. And secondly, the fact that this co-worker is much younger than me. Much, much younger! I discovered this co-worker's feelings from other co-workers. I have had 3 people in our company try to talk me into dating this young man. Even my boss has been encouraging. This fact alone is kind of blowing my mind. The thing is that everyone has kind of taken this young man under their wings, including me. I just didn't realise the feelings were more than admiration for a mentor. My gaydar might be slightly out of tune, but I think the language barrier is more the culprit. Plus, I never expect to be looked upon romantically from someone under 1/3 of my age. This young man started working with us approximately 4 - 5 months back. He's the Nephew of another employee. And both are from Peru. I immediately noticed this young man's desire to learn carpentry, and his natural ability to pick things up quickly. I taught him several things in trim carpentry, and even passed down some tools that I had in duplicate. His Uncle was trying to drop hints, to which I was oblivious (again, the language barrier). But the other day he just came out and told me how his Nephew felt about me. He doesn't seem to be uncomfortable with his Nephew's feelings at all. Even though he's just learning of his Nephew's homosexuality. There's also the cross generational thing, which apparently bothers me more than anyone else in the company. These kinds of relationships are not at all rare in the gay community, nor do they have the same stigma as they might in the heterosexual world. My own belief is that so many gay boys are rejected and unloved by their Fathers, that they seek out a pseudo Father figure in their romantic relationships. And so many gay men that may have always wanted a Son do the same. Anyway, I've been asked if I'd take him to dinner and a movie, and just see where that leads. Now I really like this young man, and he is kind of adorable, but I'm really not the long term involvement type, as well as the generational issue that I can't seem to come to terms with. Mostly I just don't want to hurt his feelings. And leading him on to any type of romantic scenario seems wrong. I'm just not good at relationships. I've always kept my sex life just exactly that...sex. So I have agreed to go to dinner and a movie Friday after work, but I'm anything but comfortable with this at the moment. Any and all advice will be taken in and evaluated. Oh, by the way, his age is 19. Just saying that makes me feel very pedo.

Walnut legs should look good.

Fingers crossed Brent! I'm hoping it happens because I'd love to see you fall off of a more expensive bike.

RIP Mr. Jaffrey. I remember MAD fondly.

Spent an absolutely fabulous Easter Sunday at Compound Bedecarre. Lots of children having a great time hunting for eggs. Great food. And heartwarming feelings just hanging with the Bedecarre siblings. I love that family!